Ceniza-Ware

I just noticed. I'VE BEEN A DEVIANT FOR A YEAR? WHAT, WAI-? What is this sorcery? And I have barely improved, haha (half-joking lol) xD Nuuuu. *sits in corner* 

I need to rant for a second. I remember long ago when I thought family always came first. You know what? I don't necessarily believe that anymore. I almost don't believe it at all. (I know I didn't come first...) I don't think people really know how I feel. If I took the time to open up to you then believe me no matter how indifferent I seem, I really do love you. I feel that it's sad that people that aren't related to you have done more for you than those who are. I think of them of sisters since I don't have any. They've encouraged me, and helped me out. Sakiusa has encouraged and pushed me a lot, and I appreciate it more than she knows. Even though she's younger than me, I look up to her (she so moe, she doesn't know yet), honestly. DrukenChurro hasn't failed to make my eye brows raise. The fact you've visited my house out on the mountains is more than many family members have done. Not even my grandparents. You were the 1st visitor to come in. And Animez13... You and I are sick buddies, and you're the reason I sometimes lose my voice. One day I'll out scream her. The purpose of this journal? Thank you guys. My family doesn't come out to see me, I have to go out of my way to see them. They've done some pretty shady things that I can see now that I'm older. They don't know my interest, what I do, or that I get sick a lot with anxiety attacks, or anemia.  Ah, Sakiusa you'd yell at me about my health, thank you for the concern. They've ignored me, my brother, and parents years on end. Then I gotta see my cousins having fun with the rest of my family? And then give an excuse like: "OH, WE CALLED" "MAYBE NEXT YEAR?" Heartbreaking? It was. But I've gotten used to it...  Am I distant? Sometimes. Anyways, we're school mates, yeah but fact of the matter is I love you guys. And thanks for the awesome school years you've given me. It's more than many people have given me, and more valuable. Alrighty I'm done complaining. *rolls away*

I went over to my Grandmother's house, because my relatives were visiting. I took a book, a paper, and a pencil, and drew. I drew for a long while. I wasn't ignoring anyone; I was drawing, and talking. Anyways, everyone was standing behind me, watching me. Like I was so interesting. I don't like people watching me while I do my thing, it's embarrassing. I was drawing a OC, and my Grandmother was like, "Is she sitting down?", I was like "No, her dress is just like that.." then my mother was like "She probably messed up" *facepalm, flips over table*..
Also, I'm going to try to post up a version of 1925. To be honest, I'm so embarrassed that *dies*. My voice is too baritone for a girl's xD Ugh, put I want to do it nevertheless so I can get better.